So, it turns out I've been wearing it backwards or over my eyes or around my ankles or something, because it's not working. There are no super powers. I'm not super-woman or super-mom or super-anything. Yeah, who knew. I apparently can't do it all. So I had an emotional breakdown a couple weeks ago. I woke up one morning & knew that if I walked into my office I would quit and just walk out...I knew that wasn't a normal response for me so I walked into a counselor's office instead. He told me all the things I already know but don't do. I have to take time for myself. I have to have actual conversations with people about issues rather than just keeping it all in. I have to relax.
So I have been. I let Hannah have a pink highlighter in the car on the way to Salem...she colored all over her legs and I didn't freak out!! How's that for relaxed? I've planned time for me to do some quilting with a friend. And, thanks to my husband, I'm going to learn to knit! (He & Hannah bought me a learn-to-knit book & needle starter kit for my birthday!) We decided I'm going to stay home when Lil Baby Stu #2 comes. I can handle 6 more months of work...I could not handle another 18+ months.
At any rate, this pregnancy has made me more physically miserable than I've ever been. I've never felt so horrible for so many weeks. It's forced me to slow down because otherwise my body just kind of shuts off and I can't function. I have a great husband, a great family, and great friends. I need to lean more on my support system and be grateful for the people God put around me.
I'm supposed to be coming up with a list of 10 things I can do to take care of myself. A list of how to relax and how to stay SarahFae and not get lost in the roles I play.
What are your suggestions for my list? Or, what is your list?
