It is a conscious decision for me to slow down. It certainly is not something that comes naturally. I must force it and it's good for me. I don't do it often enough and yet love it when I do. So, how do I learn to slow down more often? How do I fight against my natural tendencies? I rush rush rush through my days. Partly because I legitimately have a lot to do and partly because it is my nature. I am task oriented and anything that gets in my way is a problem...regardless of the fact that what's getting in my way is usually my husband and my children.
I honestly don't know how to consistently slow down. And, to be brutal, I mostly don't want to slow down. I like the fast pace. I like to get a lot done. I like to be productive. But, I don't like running over the people in my life in order to accomplish my list of tasks. I also am realizing that I don't slow down because I don't want to truly deal with or face the issues in my life and in myself. The faster I move and think the less time I have to deal with myself or pain that I feel. Grrr. Why is it that something as simple as needing to slow down is bringing to surface deeper issues? The more I learn about myself the more I learn that I have built in lots of different distractions and walls to protect myself. And...that's another issue for another day. For now, I'm going to just try & slow down a little more.
So, my question is...how do I build things into my life to help me learn to slow down?
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